Love. Stop. I forgot.

Forgetting to forget about you by JoJo.

             People are getting married and engaged left and right. Friends. Relatives. Everybody. This is good. Alhamdulillah. Something we should all be happy for. But why do some of us, feel 'tercabar' 'tergugat' 'terasa tempias'? Do we all need to get married if everyone else is getting one? Please stop and be rational. Jodoh is a very powerful fate. Something that has been decided for us long before kita bercinta dengan X,Y,Z atau that guy we thought we end up with but did not. Stories about how people got hitched, the story behind 'Will you marry me?' question. When, how, why. So far everything is unexpected and rather mysteriously set for us. So janganlah tercabar sangat. Janganlah rush something that is very big. A marriage is not a project. Marriage is life. And are you ready for that?

               I personally believe that my fate has been sealed. I have been that perigi mencari timba. Many times before. But Allah knew better. HE knew me. And often times He saved me from bad decisions and stupid circumstances. I believed more in jodoh than cinta. Cinta antara manusia seems very complicated, emotionally draining, and a waste of time. But kita manusia. Aku manusia. Perasaan cinta terhadap seseorang itu tidak dapat dielakkan. I have been there and been hurt. I tried to make it worth while. I tried to understand what it takes to defend it. I tried to fight for it. But my doubts about 'cinta' is kinda true. Thus it proves that jodoh is the real deal. Cinta? Jawab sendiri.



*I do not sound hopeless. I still believe that love will find his way back to me. Dan itu jodoh kita.