Heart

Emotions come back please.

I have this feeling of what I am writing here is a bunch of crap. I worry I will look stupid. Sebab writing crap is some dimwit skills. But the problem is not with the crap. The underlying problem is, I am officially intimidated by great writings of other fellow bloggy. That is why I permit the suicide of Pandemonium.
              Yes, Pandemonium did died a few hours. In my heart it did. But when someone we love pass away, we ached. And we start missing that person. In this case, this blog. I bet other fellow bloggers have this 'phase' in their blogger lifetime. Its like, "I am sorry, its not you its me, i cannot write on you anymore. So this is goodbye." Goodbye. So easy to do but so hard to commit kan. So now you understand why i let myself permit this suicide attempt? I'm sure many have felt the same way.
               Hey you, I am not treating you like my lover okay. But I shared things on you that is personal. I tell you stuff that I cannot imagine I could explain to others. The best thing is, you never did judge me, you never said anything back, you just let me express my feelings and tell you my story.
             And with that, how can I leave you now...I am basically crapping my way here and people are still reading my crap. Amazing. To top it off, I bet they enjoy reading our crap pandemonium. That is why we should not die yet.




*Dear najihah, you were the one who made me realized i needed pandemonium. Just like how much we need to crap each other silly every single time. Merepek with you is like food to my soul.