Looking back, I thought the world of you. I thought we can be forever. Naive. Stupid. Yeah that was me. I thought you were my friend. I thought you cared about me the way i cared about you. But something happened, i donno what. It hit me hard like a bullet train.Come to think of it.Something did happen.It was that boyfriend of yours. How sweet. Until it comes to a point you were made to choose between him or us. Gladly but sadly you chose him. The love of your life over your 'best friend'.
The truth hurt don't it. I kept blaming myself for our void. I kept thinking I was at fault for this breakdown of a friendship. Seriously, for years i blamed me. But things have changed. I have been thinking hard.
Truth is. You choose to be with someone. You choose to forget us. You choose to runaway. You choose to be disconnected. You choose to be a desperate girl. You choose to be weak. You choose to be ignorant. You choose to be heartless.
There is not a day when I hope you could just call and say "hai". I know life outgrew us. Things happen. Shit happens. I am sorry for feeling the way i do. Honestly I still know deep down you miss us. But to hope for you to make any sort of move is pointless. You can say a lot of things. Be in a mountain of denial. But friends are friends no matter what. Boyfriend/love is not an excuse for you to just let us go. It shows a lot about your character.
But to make you feel better, i still love you like i always do. Its a shame every time the babes meet up, they asked about you and seriously I hope they would just stop asking me about you anymore. Because I cannot answer shit.
Broken-hearted friend,
Hope you get my side of the story.
*Aku benci perempuan yang buang kawan sebab jantan. Tapi kawan baik aku sendiri buang aku. The irony of it is unspeakable.
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