He never left Us

I am a joker. It runs in the family. Belah mama. Se-serious mana pun the situation, we can make a joke out of it.
            When we were at the kitchen petang tu, we talked about arwah tok. Masuk tahun ni 2 minggu lepas, dah 4 tahun tok tinggalkan kami. Adik-beradik mama semua texted each other. Reminding one another about papa yang telah pergi 4 tahun lepas. Mama cakap ateh(pakteh) text mama. Then masa tu tengah tgk TV. Terus mama nangis. Teringat. Abah pulak cuak, mama tiba-tiba nangis. Ingatkan apa.
           Yang ateh pulak, masa text mama, dia tengah drive balik dr kerja. Terus berhentikan kereta tepi jalan. Sedih sangat. Mama concluded, "Kita semua banyak dosa dengan arwah papa. sebab tulah kot." Terus semua senyum. Then mulalah adik-beradik mama main, eh awaklah paling banyak dosa. eh ape saya pulak. awak tu yang selalu melawan papa. gelak-gelak-gelak.
          Abang ke kubur tok dat time. Then makde buat story, "Tok tengah tunggu afiq kat kubur, dengan gaya tok, satu kaki naik control macho, cakap..haa..afiq..bila nak kerja ni?? pergi ofis tok tu. tengok pelan-pelan tok buat. pergi kaji.."..hahaha. exactly what tok will say to abang if he is still here with us.

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Mama kata family mama memang macam ni. suka joke around. Suka perli-memperli. Sakat-menyakat. Like abang said, why so serious? With jokes, it diffuses any sticky situation.

Yes. We make fun of his ways, how stubborn he was, how he walked, how he talked. Because...We never want to forget. How we miss having tok is more than words can say.