Bloated

With great might., I should just write crap than staying on this road block.

             Kadang-kadang bukan aku sengaja nak mengada-ngada, nak emo, nak cranky macam budak-budak. Aku serious cannot help myself when i am like that. I realized that my attitude is unacceptable but somehow i cannot stop this stupid feeling inside. Immature. Selfish.
              Kadang-kadang aku sedar semua tu, so i talk about it to my friends. Because i want them to comfort me; tell me its ok but at the same time i want them to keep me in-check with reality saying; you are being immature nadia. Stop it.
               Kadang-kadang aku bersyukur aku ada mereka. When i look around, i dont think anyone will accept me for me kecuali mereka. When i'm at my best, i know i am pleasure, fun, happy. But when i am at my worst i am such a big-emotionally-disturb-attention-seeking-baby! Horrible. Melenting sana sini. Cakap sikit nak terasa. Yeah i admit it.I know i have a problem.
               Kadang-kadang aku cuba sangat nak ubah perangai-perangai yang tak elok ni. Really sometimes i am trying. I think i am making progress. i hope.


*Being a happy bubbly person has its side effect. When depress/stress(mind you this happens rarely), things can go extremely bad times x10. Someone said to me, bila kau happy nadia kau sangat happy dan bila kau depress kau sangatlah extreme. 

- On the up side...Makan all u can eat steamboat buffet sempena birthday cik jie. Kenyang sampai pecah perut kot.! Amalina macam mengandung 2 bulan setengah. haha