Aku tak bisa kecundang

     semalam aku demam teruk. walaupun badan panas, aku masih aku. sewel. bercakap-cakap. bergurau senda. because i dont want the fever to take over me. to win. and so i was myself. being normal. fighting the urge to fall badly ill. but aku kecundang juga. when my dear friends went out to buy me something to eat, i was losing the battle. my temperature sky rocketed and dah mula fikir bukan2..i was alone on the bed. in my mind was.."tak suka sakit sorang2..taknak mati sorang2.."..i was being immature, i know..but i cant help it..it was that bad..
      when they got home, i was practically damn sick. no words. crying saja. popo, ica n dayah baik..they help me a lot..nadia kalau dia ok, dia bagi respon..ni i was crying. diam aja...i didnt mean to scare them. or make them worry..huhu..sorry korg..sorry sangat..afta dijaga dan dibelai dan diteman rakan-rakan baik ku..im getting better and dah stat merapu balik..okey..pagi ni im ok..sbb icah jaga semalam..thank you so much..and to popo n dayah..now i know who my true friends are.. 


*i hate being sick alone. with people around..i am less prone to sickness..this is psychology i know..but i love being with the people i love..its kinda like my drug.