Grief for the lost

its hard to let go of someone we love.

let alone experience the lost of our most dearly.

i've felt it before. and it was a cruel blow to d heart.

when it comes to a lost. a passing of someone.

*arwah tok

i try my best to stay strong. to not shed a tear.

to not show grief. to not moan sadness.

amidst all the sadness. i felt i was responsible to assure them that everything was gonna be ok.

i exhibit less emotion. but hell. my heart was sobbing.

there were too many unspoken words.

too many untold hopes and dreams.

that i felt i wasted when he was around.

looking back. i changed a lot. i am a better person because i was fortunate to get to know him. i am proud because i am of his blood.

" Tok..nadia selalu ingat ape tok ckp kat nadia..blaja elok2..otak kamu mesti kena pandai cm otak tok. sambil tu tok akn pegang my head then kepala tok plak.....nak emphasise the brain.."

Tok..nadia da nak masuk 3rd year kat ukm. insyaAllah lagi 2 tahun graduate.. :)

"ha..nadia pegi jogging lepas makan..nanti gemuk lagi takde sape nak kahwin..."

Tok..look at me now..if u were here..u would be so proud of me..

*in memory of arwah tok..we miss u..

*icah u must b strong. for mak. for abah. for tok aki. for ur siblings. ini jalan yang ditentukan Allah. remember..we r always here 4 u..